A lot of you have been very helpful lately 🖤

Even just the hearts & hugs mean a lot 🙏 so thank you.

There's a lot I'm trying to realize & figure out. A lot of it is really hard to face. Sometimes you don't want to & you fight it but at the end of the day that only keeps you hurting for longer.

There is no victim or villain here. It's just life & it doesn't go how we want sometimes. But I think when things go south, my heart doesn't wanna let go & I try too hard to hold on.
I don't want the memories to be just memories.. I don't want the dreams to be just dreams.
But they're all still beautiful even if that's all they ever get to be.

I hate how bad things have gotten. I never wanted to be this hurt & I never wanted to hurt anyone else 💔
I didn't express my feelings here for people to feel sorry for me either... I just needed the help. So thanks again 🙏 I don't want this sad stuff to take over my account anymore so I'm trying, I promise.

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Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

Wow. I can't believe I missed this before.
You are really fucked.
I know what is wrong with you.
It's called being passionate.
Don't be embarrassed that you have extra strong feelings.
Most of the world is a dried up mess when it comes to feelings.
Think about this. When you are happy everyone around you is happy with you right?
Every one knows when Chief is in a good mood right?
So why would you try to hide being in a bad mood.
How many people do you think read your stuff recently or may in the future and thought "Wow, I'm not the only one who goes through this".
Dude, I will tell you know ain't nobody takes a break up as hard as me.
I'm the one who over analyzes everything I did from day one and spends every waking moment trying to figure out how I am going to fix it. Never mind how toxic the relationship was it was all my fault and I need to fix it.
At least you didn't just laugh and say .. better luck to me next time.
When some one is in a relationship with you it means everything to you and you put 20,700% into it.
Don't be ashamed of it dude.. own that shit.

ChiefJustWalks · 26-30

@Dainbramadge yeah pretty much man. I love strongly & I kinda hate that I'm like that. When I love, I love hard so when I hurt it hurts even harder. The painful stuff is harder to show because I like being positive. I like laughing & joking around more than anything, I don't wanna make anyone else sad with me.

I'm kinda like you with breakups I guess. I just think over everything.. the good, the bad, & try to figure it all out. Even though I know it won't fix anything, I constantly wish that I could

Dainbramadge · 56-60, M

@ChiefJustWalks Comes with the territory I guess.
You know you could find a good way to channel those feelings in music.
You have mentioned you writing lyrics before.
Feeling stuff as strongly as you are going to no matter what may as well hold some benefits for you as well.
Give it a shot. Write what you feel so deeply in verse.
Not everyone can do that.