Have you ever seen something very disturbing?

Yes all the time.

Yes, more then once. From witnessing a suicide, watching to my family member die slowly from horrible diseases, watch my ex overdose on drugs time and time again, living with a father that was wife and child beater.

They say pain makes us stronger - my life has been full of pain and struggles

I know what you mean. And if the world doesn't keep turning we will all freak the fuk out!

People have been experiencing horrors since we've existed. The things I've been learning as I dig deeper into human history are sick. Humans are sick. You can't control 8 billion people, thousands of religions, every culture, every individual belief. It's happening all the time. You'll go insane trying to carry all that.

Seeing my flat mate seriously self harm, miscarried babies too tiny to live and watching my husband die of a brain hemorrhage. They say these things make us stronger but I'm not so sure. Life can be utterly shit sometimes.

What happened?

one unfortunate experience after another, people hired to support do nothing, i left they followed me, others at church yelled or questioned me, there's no peace, maybe just death.

Yep, and then seeing a certain kind joking around here as if all was peachy dandy.