A sucker for lies

How could I love someone so much that I was blind to their lies? Was I a sucker or just a fool? At first it started out that she was working late. Then it went to she was going to meet her girlfriend for dinner one night. Every time I thought nothing about it, I even told her to have a good time. Then it went to two nights a week. It finally went so far as to telling me that she was going to spend the weekend with her cousin; her cousin lives a hour away. Here I was happy go lucky Waymor with no idea of what was going on. Then one of my buddies came by one day and told me that his wife saw mine with another guy. I didn’t believe him. I just said it was someone that looked like mine. He knew about how she was supposedly working late and going to meet her girlfriend for dinner. After he reminded me of all of that, then I began to wonder about it. The moment of truth came when I broke down and asked her about it. At first she denied it but when I told her that my buddies wife had seen her with the other guy, she admitted to it. I became numb and all cold inside. I wasn’t angry at all. I guess I was too much in shock. She said that it wasn’t anything that I had done and it wasn’t my fault. As if that would ease the pain. I’ve never felt hurt any worse than I did that moment. That’s been some time back now, but the hurt is still there. My buddies have tried to get me to date but I’m having trust issues now. I know that all women aren’t like my ex is but I just need time. I’ve got the best friends anyone could have, without them I probably would not have made it. So if there’s anyone that’s had trust issues I would like to hear how you overcame it.