I My Life Now

I'm Ok..... For those of you that have been thinking of me, messaging me thanks for caring.
Life at home has been hell! I know it was my fault, ever since he caught me. He still checks my phone, I get random emails which I have no idea why. The only website I joined was EP. All junk mail which he thinks I sent specially for me.. I try to delete stuff before he gets I to my phone, to avoid his bad mood. But when those messages come in over night he'll see them and there's goes his mad dog face. Anyway this situation is sooo drain full! When he drinks it's even worse.. He's kicked me out so many times, but I keep insisting
I did nothing wrong.. the bastard even told my kids that i was messaging my lover, I must admit I stay home and take it all cuz of my kids and because I don't have a full time job to support myself and my kids.. I didnt want to lose my family so i promised myself i would stop texting, cam with other guys. i wanted to post status of me..I'm ok but Sometimes life sucks

zmedleff1

You know what... if you did something wrong maybe you need to go through something to make it OK, BUT there has to be a path or a limit. Even if you wrong society and get punished with jail, you get out one day... then it's over and you start again. If he can't describe a path to recover, or a thing to do to make it right, then I don';t think he wants anything but to have control. Control of your rights beyond his right to have.