I Don't Deserve This Friendship
I never bother my real life friends because I know they always busy with their own lives. I don't open up anymore, I just shut down. I wrote all my worries online.
Yesterday, I got a fight with my sister as usual. I got a mental breakdown & I cried so hard like usual. Usually, I cried & move on or go to sleep. But, I was so broken, I need to let it out. I just need to talk to someone. The girl I always talk to already ended our friendship, I had no one to talk to. I called the local hotline but the line is always engaged. :'(
Then, I called one of my real life friends & she heard my sobs & she worried & she asked me what's wrong. I told her everything. She doesn't know how to respond to my situation but that's okay. I didn't know she is a good listener.
After that, she told me I can call her if there's anything upset me & she will listen. I was so touched. No one ever tell me that in my life. She's such a wonderful person & it made me think I don't deserve this kind of friendship. ;___;
Yesterday, I got a fight with my sister as usual. I got a mental breakdown & I cried so hard like usual. Usually, I cried & move on or go to sleep. But, I was so broken, I need to let it out. I just need to talk to someone. The girl I always talk to already ended our friendship, I had no one to talk to. I called the local hotline but the line is always engaged. :'(
Then, I called one of my real life friends & she heard my sobs & she worried & she asked me what's wrong. I told her everything. She doesn't know how to respond to my situation but that's okay. I didn't know she is a good listener.
After that, she told me I can call her if there's anything upset me & she will listen. I was so touched. No one ever tell me that in my life. She's such a wonderful person & it made me think I don't deserve this kind of friendship. ;___;
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