I can't understand my emotion and feelings

My closest grandmother passed away yesterday. I saw my mother, sister, and my father crying. Deep inside, I wanna cry out loud, but I can't. Today, few tears are coming out but I can't still express my sadness. Now, I am feeling sick and sluggish. I am thinking that maybe I'll be fine if I cry out loud?

Sorry for my English btw.

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LadyGrace ·

I think society puts too much pressure on people to do what it [b]thinks[/b] they should do. My best friend was the same way. It was just in her make up, that she couldn't cry and there's nothing wrong with that. We can grieve our own way and if we don't feel like grieving that doesn't mean we didn't love the person. There's no set rules on how we should act or feel after a friend or loved one dies. Nor how long we should grieve. That should strictly be up to the individual and relatives have no right to tell them how they should act or feel about a death. And we shouldn't force our feelings, just please other people.