@SuicideScout: Heh. Good question. I feel like a more knowledgeable person, now. I feel as though the shock and trauma were actually the doors to my subconscious being unlocked and throwing a bunch of my repressed issues right in my face. My fear of the Judaeo-Christian God existing and me being sent to Hell, as I had been taught. Repressing my perceptions on my friend's perceptions of me. My repressed fear of the unknown supernatural.
There are still a lot of unknowns. I don't know if I would have been worse off had I not taken the LSD. I likely would have continued to deaden my senses through the use of drugs. But, at the same time, that might have connected me to others.
You know. It's just too much extrapolation. I just don't know. I won't say that my life became better after the LSD, because the total mental breakdown was excessively painful and filled with transcendental fear. And it nearly killed me. And sometimes too much truth is too much.
Yeah. I think if I could go back, I would not take it. As they say, ignorance is bliss.
