Should I give up?

Give up, chasing pavements gets you nowhere.

Is it worth chasing? Are you happier with or without. Can you grow as a person and also together as a family? Do you want more than just being content and comfortable? I cant answer any of these things for you but i do know that i don't want you to look at your life 5, 10, or 15 years from and think "WTF was i thinking" or that you've wasted years that you can never get back.