Yall, I am so glad Ryan wasn’t a fuk boy

I am so glad he wasn’t the type even living in Memphis. I am so glad he just stayed home and played video games. I am so glad he didn’t go anywhere. Because as you guys know he did some things to me 😔 and I finally got around to get tested like 3 weeks ago and everything came back negative!!! Even though all that stuff happened like three months ago I finally got around to get tested three weeks ago and didn’t do it right away because I was scared 😔 I didn’t want them to say that I caught something. This was the real reason why I kept going to the ER and why I kept having so many panic attacks these last couple of months was because I was hyperventilating from thinking I caught something from him and I didn’t wanna pass it on to my ex and why I kept on avoiding s3x with my ex and why our relationship was getting worse because I was just protecting my ex. Plus it explains why I started freaking out on here that there was a possibility that I could’ve been pregnant too since that Ryan guy didn’t use a condom. But a lot of losers like him shoot blanks but it’s actually a good thing. And it’s a really good thing that losers like him don’t go outside and just play video games all day.

But I feel a little guilty because in a way I did get lucky but I feel guilty because there’s a lot of girls in my situation who didn’t get lucky 😔😔