A procrastination period like I've never experienced before...
I have had bouts of procrastination before... once for almost an entire school year. I barely got my work done to graduate to the next class level. My parents sensed I was depressed which was strange (because they usually seemed oblivious to it when I was). And while I was, that wasn't the reason for putting everything off. I remember my mother suspected I had gone back to game-playing again ("You're not playing your video games, are you?" I can still hear her accusing me of that with that heightened emphasis on "your." "No, Mom. I'm not."). I guess I don't really know what the reason was (I really didn't go back to "my" video games; I never have), but it was totally unrelated to being depressed (which I was). I did pass that year and became a literal powerhouse the next one which remarkably also seemed to catch the attention of my parents.
Flash forward to today. I am coming up on deadline after deadline at work. I have literally suspended all personal errands. Doing laundry and making the bed, I keep putting off too. If it wasn't for all my bills being on autopay, I suspect I wouldn't even be taking care of those. I am aware of all the things (everything) that I am putting off and I seem unfazed.
Thankfully, I am still going to the gym and hitting my progress milestones, but that's about it. I'm not sure what is causing this lack of motivation, I guess you could call it, and I don't know how to move past it. Even my spiritual journey (after a major setback) seems stuck, stalled, and suspended. I don't really know what is going on. It's definitely not depression though. Socially... well, I think I am actually regressing but now is not the time to pile on with that.
I am barely staying on budget and spending money without a moment's hesitation or apprehension. I don't know if I need a jolt to my system with a shake-up of some kind or just let it ride-out. Perhaps missing a deadline at work and the consequences will push me out of this... I don't know what to call it... apathy, I guess. I don't even seem to be concerned about the consequences which is what is scaring the hell out of me the most. I imagine I could survive 6 months with no job and income coming in if it came to that.
It is literally a period of procrastination like I've never experienced before.
Flash forward to today. I am coming up on deadline after deadline at work. I have literally suspended all personal errands. Doing laundry and making the bed, I keep putting off too. If it wasn't for all my bills being on autopay, I suspect I wouldn't even be taking care of those. I am aware of all the things (everything) that I am putting off and I seem unfazed.
Thankfully, I am still going to the gym and hitting my progress milestones, but that's about it. I'm not sure what is causing this lack of motivation, I guess you could call it, and I don't know how to move past it. Even my spiritual journey (after a major setback) seems stuck, stalled, and suspended. I don't really know what is going on. It's definitely not depression though. Socially... well, I think I am actually regressing but now is not the time to pile on with that.
I am barely staying on budget and spending money without a moment's hesitation or apprehension. I don't know if I need a jolt to my system with a shake-up of some kind or just let it ride-out. Perhaps missing a deadline at work and the consequences will push me out of this... I don't know what to call it... apathy, I guess. I don't even seem to be concerned about the consequences which is what is scaring the hell out of me the most. I imagine I could survive 6 months with no job and income coming in if it came to that.
It is literally a period of procrastination like I've never experienced before.
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