And even tho he did that stuff to me

He still checked my tires to make sure they were safe before I left. That’s something I didn’t mention because I was upset with him I wanted everybody to think he was a monster so that they’d take my side
And also he told me to unblock him when I made it home so that he know I made it home safe.

That’s why I’m still in love with him and think about him daily because deep down inside I feel like he cared about me.

Idk why he did all that to me part of it was my fault too because I threw myself at him

I just want him back. I think I was just scared when I went over to his house because yeah i didn’t know him that well but after all that he broke the ice and told me about himself and we stayed up until 2:47 AM just talking on his bed. I don’t even remember all we talked about but I remember he made me laugh a few times. He was really wanting to continue and I’m pretty sure he’s sorry for what he did and I do forgive him because both of us were just nervous. Meeting each other for the first time, your mind and your emotional go all over the place so I totally understand