I remember on EP a guy whom I'd often have a conversation with confessed to me right before ep was shutting down, like a day before.

I rejected him because of so many reasons to count.
He gave me his email so many times saying I could send him a message anytime, saying I could give him an update on my life. he asked me if I was joining sw, to which I answered with a firm no.

Looking back one of the thing that didn't crossed my mind back then but sure did now is that I was 15 turning 16 that year meanwhile he was 26! F***ing 26!
At that time this didn't cross my mind but now thinking about it I'm upset he did that.
I'm glad that I didn't hand him any personal info of myself, he didn't even saw a proper picture of mine.
I was sad for him but not anymore.

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SinlessOnslaught · M

I hear so many stories of kids being exploited, I'm glad you were smart enough to make the right choice.

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@SinlessOnslaught you know what probably saved me. Is that I'm more scared of my parents than anything.
My reason of rejecting him was mostly because I was afraid my parents would find out then my dad would have no mercy on me.
I won't deny it that I was a bit moved when he actually confessed but I rejected mainly because of mom and dad.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@SW-User When you say scared, or no mercy, what do you mean?

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@SinlessOnslaught my parents where over protective.
At that time I didn't own a phone, I used to go on my fathers laptop and go incognito mode then log into ep when no one was around so it was risky to maintain any relationship.
That was my reason of not being interested in sw at that time also.
So I was basically scared that my dad would notice any odd behaviors of mine and he didn't wanted me to be in any relationship back then much less online.. so I was sure if he ever found out he would probably beat me.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@SW-User I was scared like that too...

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@SinlessOnslaught I love my parents and though they tried their best but they still hurt me because I was isolated because of them but for matters like these I'm grateful towards them for.
Growing up I understand their intentions but for me was good but I'd probably do it differently with my own children.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@SW-User My parents gave me a better life than they had and for that I am thankful.

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@SinlessOnslaught 🥹that's a good thinking

SinlessOnslaught · M

@SW-User I have never met someone who describes their childhood and feelings of their parents so similar to me. It's like you feel bad for admitting the things they did were objectively wrong and harmful to you, because you know they rose above a level so unbelievably deep that you couldn't possibly understand what they had been through, or how they managed to get out of that hole in the first place.

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@SinlessOnslaught perhaps. If anything I probably am complaining too much about them. Lol
There where so many blessings with them that I'm grateful for, the fact they tried their very best makes me grateful. :)
And for you young man, keep your head up, you got this.
Sometimes life get better, sometimes it get worse, either way we should be prepared for it all. 🤍

SinlessOnslaught · M

@SW-User I think you and I think of our childhood and parents the same.