Is it selfish of me to be this needy and clingy towards my boyfriend?

Right now during these times, I need him more than ever. I called him while he was at work, crying on the phone literally about nothing 😭😭. I was just upset about the choice I made that’s gonna forever affect our life and I told him that he can leave any time he wanted to because I know I can be hard to be with. It’s gonna be a lot and I feel for him because he hasn’t seen me at my worst yet. In his culture, they don’t respond to mental illness. And if he was to see me have a breakdown, he might think I was doing witchcraft or something. It’s just gonna be a lot from here on out. I really want him to reduce his hours but I don’t even know how to come about that conversation with him.