Not trying to put myself down. But shit got me thinking

Why on earth would he wanna be with me knowing that I have 2 kids both from different dudes, I’m immature, irresponsible, childish, broken, mentally ill, not taking life seriously and a whole sea of other things I don’t wanna mention because I’m not tryna make myself cry this morning again. But then he’s just this great dude who has his own apartment, who has a college degree, a nice car, and a stable career working a ton doing good for himself. Why would he wanna mess that up by dating me? Because I just feel like I’m just gonna hold him back.