Suicidal thoughts. Came close to doing it back in June

Have you seen an anime called Death Parade? There's a protagonist that died and slowly remembers that she took her own life. She doesn't understand why she takes her life. When alive, she suffers an injury and is told she can't continue ice skating. She remains emotionless, while her mother tries her hardest to empathize with her. Eventually she commits suicide without understanding why she feels bad, not because she can't continue her hobby of skating, it's because of another reason.

I really felt a connection with the character. It's hard to describe emotions while fighting a cloud of depression, and I understand what it's like to go though a traumatic experience. Sometimes you want to handle it within your own terms, but family and friends can drown you in support. Sometimes it's welcoming, just not every waking minute. They just want to help and I wanted to escape them more than anything! I only need help when I ask.

I hate that I'm writing this! I like to joke around and make fun of crap. I even thought of a joke while writing the 2nd paragraph but would of killed the message. Anyway, I guess it's cool that the series spoke to me.