Instead of complaining about me being too busy, you could step up and take some of my burdens

My mind eats my time. You know I have gaps of the past that should have been filled in time. My mind is not in good state though now I have to work on duties of the present and filling the past gaps. For example in my speciality I bought around five references for internal medicine , following many medical pages on fb and channels on YouTube . More than 300 books on my phone. Consulting older doctors about this fukking problem and never felt satisfied for the past or the present.

What can I do to help you my friend?