Do you believe in real equality?

I thought I had low self esteem so I pay for dinners when dating, pay my share of weekends away. Etc etc. I thought it was because I felt crappy about myself like I didn't deserve to have stuff bought for me. I just realised its actually because I believe in equality and not because I feel rubbish about myself 😂 I'm such an idiot 😂 - that's just accurate not low self esteem 😂