My depression is getting worse. I almost went through with leaving this earth last Monday. I don’t know what to do. I told my mom but she’s getting

I don't know where you live, but talk to your doctor about lack of sunlight in the winter and how it affects you. If you want to get better and not suffer like this, force yourself to go outside and walk about a mile every single day, working your way up to two miles. If you are handicapped and cannot walk, talk to your doctor about recumbent cycles.