Was in the city few days, shopping. My feet still hurt so much.

Got back home yesterday ugh I fell asleep like a baby on my soft bed when i got home . But I still had to get up the next day to go grocery shopping at my local store... I had a Christmas miracle, my dad is back home with us. He had Pneumonia was in the hospital for 2 weeks, we were so worried especially me, cried so much bc he is my only parent I have left. I didnt even tell anyone 😔 close to me lol not that i have anyone close to me lol but my siblings, ugh glad my older brother was there bc i was crying like a big baby, i couldn't go see him in the hospital without crying with worry, seeing him hooked up to a breathing ventilator had me in tears. Glad hes back at home. I gotta go visit him more... Basically, i am holding on for dear life with xmas jus 2 days away and everyone around will be cheering with their vodka glasses and beers ahhhh, imma hide away in the room so i dont fall off the wagon and end up relapsing and buying crack cocaine, ughhh i am still not that strong enough to be around ppl drinking or doing drugs..