Life continually shows me, that I walk alone.

It's not healthy, I crave friends/community. But people either want to consume me with need or only use me when it suits them. I know I am worth more, but it's not coming. I will pick myself up and carry on being a good mom, loving nature and I will stand up for your human rights and mine. I'm not afraid of sadness or dying alone, just sad that I couldn't give the love I know I am capable of, for the sake of putting something good into the world.

I believe in you, from a distance 🌊

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SwampFlower · 31-35, F

This was something that was missing for most of my life and I remember this feeling all too well. It seems like it gets harder and harder to create meaningful connections with each passing year.

You are a good human and I hope you do eventually find your people. You mention loving nature and defending human rights...have you looked into any local meetups or advocacy groups that may need volunteers? Just a thought to get you to branch out and possibly meet other like minded people.

Good luck ❤

ScreamingFox

@SwampFlower it has definitely gotten harder. I used to have friends and family, but people passed on. I don't fit in with whatever this life is now.

I have to move soon, because no, there aren't like minded people near me unfortunately. It's a tourist town, lots of wealth, they're destroying preserved land for more houses. I have to get out of here... it's just my home. They destroyed my home. And now they want to take away the only safety I have.

I have to get my son out of this somehow.

SwampFlower · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox That is so hard and I am so sorry it is happening in your home town. We see it play out in our local communities here too and it is always so tragic.

Do you have any idea where you want to go?

ScreamingFox

@SwampFlower Tucson AZ. We loved it in our travels. My son and I didn't have pain there, the warm and dry air helps, the sunshine. It's a vibrant community there. People are genuinely kind, look you in the eye. I have no idea how to do it all alone but I will.

Thank you for being so sweet and encouraging. Sending love to you. I know you're having a rough time too, but I always believe in you 🫂

SwampFlower · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox I believe in you, too, friend 🤗🤗❤