but also I want to tell you how embarassed I am of my teenage self
So I used to go around literally believing I was going to be a king someday.
Somehow I was just going to do all the things. People tried to impress on me how hard it is to do a military coup. They told me how dangerous it was etc but nope. I was going to do a Gaddafi style takeover somehow.
I even made a flag and hung it up in my room and with a serious face said its for "the revolution". I remember there was even this dork that went along with it. He would salute and shit in middle school. It was sooo stupid.
I think what changed me is getting a job in high school. Then I realized, holy shit life is really fucking hard and it really is a ruthless cutthroat world where the competition is INTENSE.
Before that I just sort of believed people were just fundamentally lazy. So stupid. And it is true that people are lazy but not when you start talking about money.
It is just one of those experiences of my life I sort of hide in the back of my mind and pretend never happened. In the same part of my mind as times I have farted in public or fallen for tripping over a chair etc.
Somehow I was just going to do all the things. People tried to impress on me how hard it is to do a military coup. They told me how dangerous it was etc but nope. I was going to do a Gaddafi style takeover somehow.
I even made a flag and hung it up in my room and with a serious face said its for "the revolution". I remember there was even this dork that went along with it. He would salute and shit in middle school. It was sooo stupid.
I think what changed me is getting a job in high school. Then I realized, holy shit life is really fucking hard and it really is a ruthless cutthroat world where the competition is INTENSE.
Before that I just sort of believed people were just fundamentally lazy. So stupid. And it is true that people are lazy but not when you start talking about money.
It is just one of those experiences of my life I sort of hide in the back of my mind and pretend never happened. In the same part of my mind as times I have farted in public or fallen for tripping over a chair etc.
