I Get So Embarrassed When I Embarrass Myself

well now im sure my neighbours think im a disgusting pig.. uggh so embarrassing

I noticed that a lot of my medication was gone from its usual spot and after looking for ages in a panic, I finally thought damn maybe I accidently put it in the garbage bin when I was cleaning the house..
so I go outside and start digging through my bin and I should mention I am short so I was literally in the bin with only my legs out (yes it was gross) finally I find my medicine and as soon as I poke my head out of bin I see my neighbours looking over the fence in disgust..

now after a shower, I still feel gross knowing my neighbours seen what they seen.. uggh I hate my life at times