Do you feel forgiveness is not something you just give as a one time thing? Like one second you're fine but then later on, you're not?
I sometimes think of old relationships.
Sometimes I feel I'm okay and wish them well.
Sometimes though, when I think of them again, I kinda imagine some sort of punishment or reprimand.
I don't think sorry is meant to be just a word. When one is sorry, there should be chasing for atonement. When one wants back, there should be a change. But the wall is built to be climbed.
But it's like the apple at the top of the tree thing. Effort is a thing that makes you realize the difference between people you wanna keep around you and people you wanna throw away.