I Am A Struggling College Student
I started my degree online when I was 16 and already depressed at the time. I got about half done by the time I was 18... It was all online school and it was kinda miserable but I could bear it, but then I stopped making progress I had to start working or I would have been kicked out. But that ended up halting my progress nearly completely and I collapsed in my depression at that time and it got so bad I couldn't study for more than 5 minutes without losing focus. Eventually when I started to get better emotionally and rebuild my study skills. I really had a break through when I was 20 and started making lots of progress on school again. I am 22 now and I have about 21 credits left, now I can do school and it doesn't feel as crushing anymore.
However I'm at a point where I just want to be finished I want to finish by this summer and I have 7 classes to do in 5 months... It feels impossible... But I've already been doing this for so long, I can feel people around me looking down on me... I used to be like 2 years ahead with half effort, and now I'm a year behind and struggling to finish... This summer I have an opportunity to intern somewhere amazing if I finish my degree, Carolyn is gonna be working there too, she is a close friend of mine and she's pretty much the girl of my dreams and in the past she has expressed mutual feelings about me... She cares about me alot but I feel like I'm losing her because of my struggles with school. She really values academics, I think she might even believe to an extent that someones whole life hinges on how they do in college... So IDK I'm just having a melt down... I don't wanna lose her, I wanna finish college.... And I have 7 classes to do in 5 months it feels impossible
However I'm at a point where I just want to be finished I want to finish by this summer and I have 7 classes to do in 5 months... It feels impossible... But I've already been doing this for so long, I can feel people around me looking down on me... I used to be like 2 years ahead with half effort, and now I'm a year behind and struggling to finish... This summer I have an opportunity to intern somewhere amazing if I finish my degree, Carolyn is gonna be working there too, she is a close friend of mine and she's pretty much the girl of my dreams and in the past she has expressed mutual feelings about me... She cares about me alot but I feel like I'm losing her because of my struggles with school. She really values academics, I think she might even believe to an extent that someones whole life hinges on how they do in college... So IDK I'm just having a melt down... I don't wanna lose her, I wanna finish college.... And I have 7 classes to do in 5 months it feels impossible