I Am Really Starting to Hate College
P5 - I Don't Want To Write Anymore!... UGGGH! I'm friggin' losing it!!! I remember when I was getting my Interior Design Bachelor's degree and I would be sitting in class thinking, "ANOTHER FLOOR PLAN?! I miss just writing a paper!!!" Now here I am, getting my Masters in Business Administration thinking, "If I have to write one more stickin' paper, I'm gonna...!!!" UGGGH! Don't take this the wrong way. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE designing/space planning floor plans and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE writing. I am VERY good at both. But to be overwhelmed like this...UGGGH!
I sit here, staring at my assignment. I have been for almost a week now. I am running behind on two assignments total. I have turning in all of my papers and class discussions late. And the thing is, I AM WRITING THESE SOOO WELL!!! I look at the writings of the others, and to come from a creative background where I know NOTHING about business, i think I'm doing quite good!!! [b]( ~ ∇ ^ )[/b] But I SERIOUSLY am drained! Sometimes I question if I am taking the right route. Design is my passion and although I am fully aware of the benefits of having a master's degree in business, I am just not feeling it. I want to get these assignments done. I want to pass this class. I want so many things. I wish the economy wasn't in a recession. I was so very excited when I completed my bachelor's. I felt anxious and ready for the numerous jobs that would be falling into my lap. Two and a half years later, no such luck. It's so incredibly discouraging. We shoot for education for a means of doing whatever it is we love to do. They tell us this. Our parents, teachers, friends, the media, the world. Then we come into a world where we are told we CANNOT have that and yeah, you still need to pay of these student loans. And no, I don't care if you do not have a job. Not my problem. Deal with it.
I initially went back to school because I couldn't find a job. I couldn't afford to pay for my loans, So I decided to increase my job skills and further my education. I do not hate what I am doing right now, but I wish I was more excited about it. I am so sick and tired of all of the discouragements I've been getting the last past few years. Job hunts, interviews, thanks but no thanks. Great job, but not good enough. It makes me hate life, well, my life professionally. I want to be happy. I want to know that all of this hard work will pay off in the long run. I want a little bit of reassurance and encouragement. Hell, I even kind of want a little bit of guarantee. I guarantee if you put in all of this hard work, you WILL succeed. I am so proud of myself every time I complete an assignment at this school thus far. If you knew me, I do not turn in mediocre work. I would rather have it late than turn in trash. I would rather fail a class, retake it, than skate on by turning in mediocre work. Just the way I am. But geez, wouldn't I just LOVE to have these papers done, regardless of what it says, just finished being written, turned in, done. I don't want to write anymore.
Well, I completed my handwritten venting. UGGGH. Back to reading and writing for school. Maybe I should see what's in the fridge, get a snack. Maybe something in the cupboard? UGGGH! OMFG!!! GET THIS STOOPID HOMEWORK DONE AIRZM!!! UGGGH!!! [b]ㅇ(≥ㅁ ≤; )ㅇ[/b]
I sit here, staring at my assignment. I have been for almost a week now. I am running behind on two assignments total. I have turning in all of my papers and class discussions late. And the thing is, I AM WRITING THESE SOOO WELL!!! I look at the writings of the others, and to come from a creative background where I know NOTHING about business, i think I'm doing quite good!!! [b]( ~ ∇ ^ )[/b] But I SERIOUSLY am drained! Sometimes I question if I am taking the right route. Design is my passion and although I am fully aware of the benefits of having a master's degree in business, I am just not feeling it. I want to get these assignments done. I want to pass this class. I want so many things. I wish the economy wasn't in a recession. I was so very excited when I completed my bachelor's. I felt anxious and ready for the numerous jobs that would be falling into my lap. Two and a half years later, no such luck. It's so incredibly discouraging. We shoot for education for a means of doing whatever it is we love to do. They tell us this. Our parents, teachers, friends, the media, the world. Then we come into a world where we are told we CANNOT have that and yeah, you still need to pay of these student loans. And no, I don't care if you do not have a job. Not my problem. Deal with it.
I initially went back to school because I couldn't find a job. I couldn't afford to pay for my loans, So I decided to increase my job skills and further my education. I do not hate what I am doing right now, but I wish I was more excited about it. I am so sick and tired of all of the discouragements I've been getting the last past few years. Job hunts, interviews, thanks but no thanks. Great job, but not good enough. It makes me hate life, well, my life professionally. I want to be happy. I want to know that all of this hard work will pay off in the long run. I want a little bit of reassurance and encouragement. Hell, I even kind of want a little bit of guarantee. I guarantee if you put in all of this hard work, you WILL succeed. I am so proud of myself every time I complete an assignment at this school thus far. If you knew me, I do not turn in mediocre work. I would rather have it late than turn in trash. I would rather fail a class, retake it, than skate on by turning in mediocre work. Just the way I am. But geez, wouldn't I just LOVE to have these papers done, regardless of what it says, just finished being written, turned in, done. I don't want to write anymore.
Well, I completed my handwritten venting. UGGGH. Back to reading and writing for school. Maybe I should see what's in the fridge, get a snack. Maybe something in the cupboard? UGGGH! OMFG!!! GET THIS STOOPID HOMEWORK DONE AIRZM!!! UGGGH!!! [b]ㅇ(≥ㅁ ≤; )ㅇ[/b]
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