Kill me now please

My new classes are introduction to philosophy and literary theory. Both are absolutely bullshit, I have learned nothing from either of them so far after reading numerous chapters. I have literally yelled because it’s so frustrating. Philosophy has always been bs and I think I need to be high to understand it. Literary theory is equally useless. I just read about a subject and learned nothing about it because not once do they describe what it actually is about. This is gonna be a long ass two months.