How to not hate myself?

I hate myself. I hate everything that i am. I hate my body, my voice, my hair, my personality, my laugh, my sense of anything. I dont want to hate myself. I hate hating myself. But i cant stop just looking in the mirror and hating the reflection. I wish God just made me pretty. I wish no one ever told me i was ugly. I dont even know why i hate myself exactly. I never seem to do anything right. I never seem to just do anhthing at all. I just sleep all day and i barely eat and i just drown in coffee. I hate thus feeling. I thought i was getting better. I thought i was finally having progress, but then i saw my bare body in the mirror and all those self improvements just vanished. Did i even love myself if I just relapsed that quick? I hate going back to square one. I hate feeling like ive waisted my time on self improvement when i couldve just rotted in bed. I hate myself. I bet theres someone else whod make a better me than me. I want to get better. I do. Somebody please help me love myself.