I Have Lost People I Love From Cancer

A few years back about 6, my closest friend Justin died of GBM. We where extremely close. We where in 6th grade when we meet. I was young and was just coming to terms with who I was when we meet. We spent almost every day after school and weekends together. The cancer started showing itself when we where in 9th grade. He started treatments immediately upon finding it. It was not going to save him but it would give him something. I have blocked his passing out for years. My family was in the military and we moved a few months after he passed. It was easy to block his memory it because no one where we moved knew about him. I just told my bestfriend about him a few weeks ago. It still pains me to think of him. We where going to travel the world and makes tons of money by opening up our own tech company. But those dreams left when he passed.

I have for years denied we where ever together. But in all honesty we where dating for the last year and a half he was alive. He was not open neither was I at the time. So I have denied it to keep his name good in that town. Are relationship was only known to his parents. And that is all who knew.


I have not dated since because I compare everyone I meet to Justin. And no one could ever replace or fill the void I was left. I miss him a lot and would do anything to have his laugh his humor his personality back. I would do anything to have him back. But it wont ever bring him back.