I Am HIV Positive

Life Is Life... In june 2013 i was told i was hiv positive and i thought my life was over i paniced and went crazy i was so hurt i couldn't believe it in the last 3 years ivr only slept with one man the father of my child and he wasnt a two timing bastart a actual loving family man that was responsible and their at all times i mean literally we never seperated so then my dr tells me ive been + for 2 years i was previously in an abuse relationship with a guy who slept with anything that walks the earth with legs and a pu**y so it was hard to get out and i eventually did. but what i dnt get is with both of these men i have been tested at least 2x with each men and its never been said before or been caught and i get tested often whenever i felt my ex cheated we got tested together. well i gave my dr the names of the men i slept
with and they put their names through a system and idk who but they got a name back thats been in the system which i cang be told bcuz of confidentiality so im stuck wondering when and with i sometimes cry and feel like im falling apart but i try my best to be strong bcuz i have a 5 year old son who loves and needs me and also we have his devoted loving father. im lost but keeping my faith.