I Am HIV Positive

Nervous About My Appt... May 30 i was told i was hiv positive and i was so in shock i asked to be retested so i have my appt tomorrow at 9 and im very nervous i knw Nothn will change i jus hope it hasnt gotten worse being i was tested over a year ago and jus finding out im also nervous because my fiancee also my sons father has to get his results and im going to feel horrible if i ruined his life i dnt knw what to do this is terrible and the guy that did this to me feels like its some sort of joke im praying he gets arrested soon bcuz of him im now walking death i need inspiration plz comment

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JAngel65

How are yours and his results seeing as its been almost 2 weeks since your post.

QUEENJAS · 31-35, F

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JAngel65

I'm so sorry to hear that. While now it may not mattet but perhaps you didnt give it to him (you were behind on getting tested/results) maybe he was too. Just an idea that it doesn't much matter who gave what to who, you guys are both positive and now have to go on the journey together. I've done a lot of research into it and I know its rare that you'd have a strain that would make you sick quicker etc. Most people live soooo long, have kids, multiple healthy relationships, its not a death sentence no more than being born in the first place is. I think its the unfortunate stigma attached to it that causes so many horrible emotions because of and towards it. I have a habit of looking on the bright side but imagine if you were diagnosed with stomach cancer, huntington's disease, or Parkinson' s. Those are all wayyy worse than what you have. I can tell you stomach cancer - rare to beat it and dead in about 3 years, HIV today - you're going to live 30-50 years, if not longer since there's constant advancements. I know it will take a while to be ok and come to terms with it but make sure you stay on top of your care and you have the potential for everything you wanted.

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