Finally a warm day that was in the 80s and I hate having a disability

It was so nice and only problem is it’s only lasting for today, Tuesday and Wednesday and then it gets cold again 😡 tomorrow is going to be like 70-75 depending where you are that’s not warm . I live in the wrong part of the country definitely but due to mental health issues I have things tying me down in New England and northeast USA is wrong part of country for me generally. I wish I lived in the southwest USA but can’t realistically do that. It is complicated because all my mental health supports are here and my family to help me is here. If I had close friends or a spouse I could move with and I wasn’t mentally ill, then feasibly I could do it. I guess I have to put up or shut up. My clothes are such a problem because my parents think I overdress too warmly for the weather and season and they try to control the way I dress. Not on a day like today but when it is 50s, 60s, and lower-mid 70s I dress like it is cold outside because it is. I regret my life sometimes and I have to develop motivation to take care of myself psychologically and financially if I ever want to live on my own and be independent. I’m not a thriving, functional adult. I’m on disability benefits and my parents pay everything else for me. We are working on slowly transitioning me to as much financial independence and autonomy as I can have and psychological autonomy as long as I see my therapist and psychiatrist and take my medications. I don’t want to live in a group home or institutionalized care so I take my meds. I don’t want to be supervised by staff in my living quarters and have to follow a rigid schedule and rules. I don’t want to end up in a nursing home either. No residential care homes for me oh no. I would sooner off myself than live in one of those places. I could try supported independent living which gives me the ultimate autonomy, freedom, and independence. The flexibility of supportive housing is good I would only be checked on as much as I needed but otherwise would be free to come and go as I please in my own apartment or house. Being disabled really sucks. I have mental disabilities not physical or intellectual/developmental disabilities. Also I need to finish my online courses to secure part time freelance flexible remote work to add income to my disability check and be at least partially a productive member of society. It will take a lot of effort and discipline. I need to muster up more motivation and consistency in achieving goals, etc.