Unvisible disabilities
Being born with an unvisible disability like mine and something that is so extremely rare noone in your surrounding cant understand it...that is really tough to live with, I have Cerebellar Ataxia and not even my neuro doc knew what it was. This was not recognized until 35 years later and now it has changed my life and future forever and all my dreams, well...not all but many of them, is gone forever.
For example when I was younger and fast in my hands and fingers I went a keyboard course and learned me to play a digital keyboard and I could play really good that time but now many years later I am not that fast in my hands and fingers anymore but I can luckily still play some tones and even some movie themes. This is NOT because of my higher age...its because of my disability that has made my movements slower.
I can ride an electric three-wheel bike, my legs works as they normally do, but I always have to walk with a walking frame both indoors and outdoors. I always have to wear a sign on my body that tells other people I am disabled. I wish I had a body like Dwayne Johnson but my disability will still be inside my body. It has with the small brain in the neck to do and I dont think it dissappear if you go to a gym and train.
But my life isnt that bad after all, now I will be retired in early age and that is a huge advantage for me. Now I never have to wake up early in the morning and go to a job, I can stay in bed to atleast 10-11 AM and eat my breakfast when others eat their lunch. I can watch TV until very late at night, I have everlasting sparetime to do what I want. I can write diaries on my laptop, I use DayOne as a digital diary. But love on the other side isnt that easy.
For example when I was younger and fast in my hands and fingers I went a keyboard course and learned me to play a digital keyboard and I could play really good that time but now many years later I am not that fast in my hands and fingers anymore but I can luckily still play some tones and even some movie themes. This is NOT because of my higher age...its because of my disability that has made my movements slower.
I can ride an electric three-wheel bike, my legs works as they normally do, but I always have to walk with a walking frame both indoors and outdoors. I always have to wear a sign on my body that tells other people I am disabled. I wish I had a body like Dwayne Johnson but my disability will still be inside my body. It has with the small brain in the neck to do and I dont think it dissappear if you go to a gym and train.
But my life isnt that bad after all, now I will be retired in early age and that is a huge advantage for me. Now I never have to wake up early in the morning and go to a job, I can stay in bed to atleast 10-11 AM and eat my breakfast when others eat their lunch. I can watch TV until very late at night, I have everlasting sparetime to do what I want. I can write diaries on my laptop, I use DayOne as a digital diary. But love on the other side isnt that easy.
