do you know what you want your life to look like?
I joined a course because well i've been squeezed out of a job.
people keep telling me i have potential to do more as i sound intelligent but academically i am inept. I barely scrapped through school and now trying to get on to courses means I am not being accepted as i don't meet the requirements.
if i do want to do a course i have to pay which i cant afford because they are full time.
so im in between a rock and a hard place meaning that i cannot progress and staying in my job is becoming unbearable, it doesn't matter how many times i say i just want to continue in my job role and would prefer for the staff to just drop it, they continue to go on about moving on.
In my current course i haven't been able to find any connections as im old. the students don't want to talk to me, and the few that have are only interested in whether i have work connections in this field. when they hear i don't they aren't interested in my work.
which has been subject to a lot of ridicule.
On the rare occasions i have to do forced group discussions im baited simply because im too dumb to realise that its a set up to say the wrong or least appealing thing.
I don't come from a background of psychology or environments where people use underhand tactics to succeed so i've just been crumbling under this now new set of rules and games that i just don't get.
So now Im just feeling like I want to retreat simply because i just can't get up to speed with these mind games.
Im not asking for advice pity or any feedback on my attitude because i have for the most part heard suck it up. youll meet better people. But its so bad that my tutor has basically asked for a draft of my work to screen it for censorship and is only iintroducing me to people outside the uk.
I cannot access the jobs portal here for jobs in the Uk and i know this because i received an email a day after signing up with a new account stating that i couldnt work as i hadnt signed a right to work form. when another student who is international signed up she didnt receive the emails and can see the jobs board.
why im being blacklisted i really dont know when i didnt actually do anything. my subject matter started to get darker after facing the current problems at a the starting lower level.
Covid came and has allowed my tutor to isolate me from all the other students, who when i went to campus ignored me despite going in being friendly to them.
people keep telling me i have potential to do more as i sound intelligent but academically i am inept. I barely scrapped through school and now trying to get on to courses means I am not being accepted as i don't meet the requirements.
if i do want to do a course i have to pay which i cant afford because they are full time.
so im in between a rock and a hard place meaning that i cannot progress and staying in my job is becoming unbearable, it doesn't matter how many times i say i just want to continue in my job role and would prefer for the staff to just drop it, they continue to go on about moving on.
In my current course i haven't been able to find any connections as im old. the students don't want to talk to me, and the few that have are only interested in whether i have work connections in this field. when they hear i don't they aren't interested in my work.
which has been subject to a lot of ridicule.
On the rare occasions i have to do forced group discussions im baited simply because im too dumb to realise that its a set up to say the wrong or least appealing thing.
I don't come from a background of psychology or environments where people use underhand tactics to succeed so i've just been crumbling under this now new set of rules and games that i just don't get.
So now Im just feeling like I want to retreat simply because i just can't get up to speed with these mind games.
Im not asking for advice pity or any feedback on my attitude because i have for the most part heard suck it up. youll meet better people. But its so bad that my tutor has basically asked for a draft of my work to screen it for censorship and is only iintroducing me to people outside the uk.
I cannot access the jobs portal here for jobs in the Uk and i know this because i received an email a day after signing up with a new account stating that i couldnt work as i hadnt signed a right to work form. when another student who is international signed up she didnt receive the emails and can see the jobs board.
why im being blacklisted i really dont know when i didnt actually do anything. my subject matter started to get darker after facing the current problems at a the starting lower level.
Covid came and has allowed my tutor to isolate me from all the other students, who when i went to campus ignored me despite going in being friendly to them.
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