Covid or suicidal thoughts ? which one would you choose ?

I already have suicidal thoughts...its not quite the same as being suicidal and is pretty normal to me but then covid doesn't really sound that bad unless your one of the unlucky ones which in reality is rare but then if your already having suicidal thoughts is it really that unlucky? I dunno.
I think if I could get rid of any of those thoughts and have a little bit of covid it would be a worthy trade