I Hate Cancer

Hello I'll tell you what I've been going thru. I went to get a shoulder x-ray last week because I woke up few days ago in the morning having the most excruciating pain so I thought I slept on it wrong but it wouldn't really go away. I had a doctor's appointment to get the results. He said everything looked good for my shoulder (which I knew he was going to say that) but he said I had a 9 mm nodule in my lung and I do smoke cigarettes. Idk how to take this it's been 4 days sense he told me and I haven't told no one yet in my family. I have to get a cat scan today to look at my chest. Im not really asking for anything I just had to say something about it. I think it's cancer 9mm is big and I hope it's benign but we will see im a (F37).