I feel I need to go on supplemental security income

Temporarily to get on my feet. Eventually when I have enough energy And stamina to work and make enough money I will not need it anymore. One of my goals is to make $3,000-$5,000 a month while living with my parents. When I live off on my own I hope to make $ 5,000-$6,000 a month so I can afford living expenses. My parents think I should keep supplemental security income permanently if I get approved. If j start out small making $1000-$2000 a month while I live at home it would be a start. Once u get through enough documents to become highly experienced in what I do.. my parents also think I could qualify from section 8 housing and low income help like food benefits if I stay on supplemental security income and work as much is allowed. I don’t know when I’ll be fully independent and financially self sufficient. They want me to keep it as a safety net in case my mental illness gets out of hand and I can’t handle working full time or high end of part time. I think they lost hope for me to be able to handle a significant amount of working career. I have not finished any of my courses that would lead to skills to get work. I have to go back to university to finish my degrees in the future but that’s a long way away. I’m not showing them that I can handle life and I am not sure myself when I will be able to handle paying all my own bills and running a household of one. I hope eventually I can work part time with a remote flexible schedule career maybe the equivalent of 20-30 hours per week or get paid based on production like per word or per page or a flat rate on a project. Or per hour per minute or per audio hour etc. I don’t want to be on social benefits for the rest of my life. I need to be in the right headspace to handle a career, education, my hobbies/interests/talents/passions/skillsets/aptitiudes. Also paying my own bills, handling insurance, keeping up with household shopping and maintenance including regular cleaning, cooking and laundry and fixing things around the house. My parents think it would help me to live in supportive housing for those with mental illness as a transition eventually to moving out if I I want. Supplemental security income would allow me to pay low rent and utilities. But eventually I want to move to complete independence if I do well in supportive housing. My parents are planning on keeping me close by. When they move after retirement to be closer to my sister and they think it’s best if I move with them so I have family supports nearby. I’m staying with my parents for the next few years in their house. I wish my life did not come. To this. Needing to be looked after and my mom dispenses my medication to me as an adult. I wish I never developed mental illnesses or anything else wrong with me.