Things have gotten worse.
TW talk of brain tumors / health anxiety
Female, 17y
I made a post on here just a day or two ago about my thoughts of having a brain tumor, due to my almost strictly right sided headaches and vision loss. i ended up going into the er for a possible seizure and a drooping eyelid as well as my other symptoms, they did a non-contrast ct scan and saw nothing abnormal other then my bloodwork showing the fact my white blood cell count was a bit high not worryingly high but a bit high, and right after i went home i felt genuinely good!
my headache was almost gone just leaving that pre headache there but not pain feeling and i was still fatigued but i felt ok and confident dispute knowing that ct scans especially none contrast ones aren't the best for diagnosis.
unfortunately its all been crashing down now yesterday i felt BAD. the headache isn't anything abnormal just the same shit ive been having all week but i started getting more ringing in both my ears then normal, after that i started feeling incredibly week and scared.
suddenly through i felt pins and needles and almost a burning pain on my right arm and leg my headache went away suddenly and i started feeling extremely nauseous and coughing like crazy, it felt like somthing was in my throat and i was absolutely terrified i genuinely thought i might be having a stroke.
after a few minutes the pain in my leg and arm calmed down but the nausea remained, my dad brought me in some food and eating it was hard but i think it helped in the end. weirdly enough my headache only returned after all the other stuff completely depleted.
it might be good to say the nausea may have been because i hardly had eaten all day and i have gerd ive been having a hard time with eating, possibly cause of the anxiety but again thinking of the worst possible outcomes here.
now today ive been freaking out again (hypochondriac things lol) constantly looking up brain cancer / tumor symptoms on every possible outlet crying my eyes out and fully convinced again im going to die soon.
as of now my head hurts again in the back right side as it normal is my eyes feel so heavy like i need to sleep / kinda lightheaded, no way in hell i can sleep though for the last few days i can only ever sleep for a few hours before waking up it might be the practically debilitating anxiety as ive had it before but of course im afraid of the worst.
i know asking for reassurance is dumb but if theres anyway others know of how to cope or what to do im willing to take anything im scared, tired, and i feel so horrible all around.
i obviously have not been given a diagnosis yet but im also looking for some ways to cope with the thought of death? for some reason whenever im feeling good and better between my hypochondriac month long freak outs i feel completely normal about it thinking it happens to everyone and i shouldn't worry too much.
but whenever i have the idea i may have a disease (over the past year ive thought i had, silent strokes, lung cancer/copd, afib, diabetes, and kidney failure all at different times) i start being terrified of the thought of death, is this normal for health related anxiety?
sorry for the mix of vent/questions but thanks if you read all of that, i hope you have a wonderful day <3
Female, 17y
I made a post on here just a day or two ago about my thoughts of having a brain tumor, due to my almost strictly right sided headaches and vision loss. i ended up going into the er for a possible seizure and a drooping eyelid as well as my other symptoms, they did a non-contrast ct scan and saw nothing abnormal other then my bloodwork showing the fact my white blood cell count was a bit high not worryingly high but a bit high, and right after i went home i felt genuinely good!
my headache was almost gone just leaving that pre headache there but not pain feeling and i was still fatigued but i felt ok and confident dispute knowing that ct scans especially none contrast ones aren't the best for diagnosis.
unfortunately its all been crashing down now yesterday i felt BAD. the headache isn't anything abnormal just the same shit ive been having all week but i started getting more ringing in both my ears then normal, after that i started feeling incredibly week and scared.
suddenly through i felt pins and needles and almost a burning pain on my right arm and leg my headache went away suddenly and i started feeling extremely nauseous and coughing like crazy, it felt like somthing was in my throat and i was absolutely terrified i genuinely thought i might be having a stroke.
after a few minutes the pain in my leg and arm calmed down but the nausea remained, my dad brought me in some food and eating it was hard but i think it helped in the end. weirdly enough my headache only returned after all the other stuff completely depleted.
it might be good to say the nausea may have been because i hardly had eaten all day and i have gerd ive been having a hard time with eating, possibly cause of the anxiety but again thinking of the worst possible outcomes here.
now today ive been freaking out again (hypochondriac things lol) constantly looking up brain cancer / tumor symptoms on every possible outlet crying my eyes out and fully convinced again im going to die soon.
as of now my head hurts again in the back right side as it normal is my eyes feel so heavy like i need to sleep / kinda lightheaded, no way in hell i can sleep though for the last few days i can only ever sleep for a few hours before waking up it might be the practically debilitating anxiety as ive had it before but of course im afraid of the worst.
i know asking for reassurance is dumb but if theres anyway others know of how to cope or what to do im willing to take anything im scared, tired, and i feel so horrible all around.
i obviously have not been given a diagnosis yet but im also looking for some ways to cope with the thought of death? for some reason whenever im feeling good and better between my hypochondriac month long freak outs i feel completely normal about it thinking it happens to everyone and i shouldn't worry too much.
but whenever i have the idea i may have a disease (over the past year ive thought i had, silent strokes, lung cancer/copd, afib, diabetes, and kidney failure all at different times) i start being terrified of the thought of death, is this normal for health related anxiety?
sorry for the mix of vent/questions but thanks if you read all of that, i hope you have a wonderful day <3
18-21, F
