Sometimes I can't eat because all my thoughts are about the people who have to suffer like I did or worse.

The food reminds me of the hunger. The starvation.
I look at my body and I empathize with its limitations. This is the body of someone who was severely neglected as a child and so are millions of children ..
How fucking fucked up this world is.
Food is too much to provide.
How fucking fucked up this world we have built ourselves..
And it is easy to deny that when your belly is full.