Hoping I can finally commit to weight loss

It’s one of those things where I’ve been telling myself I need to do it, but it can wait another day.

Well, I this past week I was on vacation with a large group. I was sitting on the edge of a hot tub talking with some family and someone handed out shots and took our picture. They shared it on fb messenger in this group they setup for sharing vacation pics. I wasn’t just horrified with what I saw, I was absolutely disgusted by my body.

I’ve lost weight before and I know I can do it, but I have an almost addictive relationship with food. To top it off I turn to food when I’m stressed. Since having kids it’s been hard to maintain focus. And I’ve found it harder to find alternative ways to release stress.

For the moment I can’t get the absolute disgust out of my head. I’m hoping that keeps me going. The initial couple months are the hardest.

Sorry for the long post, I just needed a place to articulate my thoughts.