im going back to closing myself off to the world.

ive been this way since i was a teen. its always felt safer not getting close to others. people have always had away of harming. i never really had a life because of it. never dated. never really done much. never had a s.o. never had many friends. its not healthy but it feels so normal to just shut everyone out. not getting hurt not caring about people that ultimately was just using you or really didnt care. i went onto social media 3 years ago. to help with my mindset as i was suffering from a dark depression. and felt like maybe i would find some friends i could relate to online.. that ended up being a mistake. im going to be heading back to my closed off state. cutting everyone out. to be alone. focusing on myself. probably the reason im pretty much a mute and have a hard time communicating. but you dont have to deal with others.

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FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

I'm gonna have to learn to do that for reasons I may not disclose!

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

@FearfulHarmony49 That would be a mistake. The purpose of life is to grow and experience. There is no refuge from suffering in isolation. A person in isolation becomes delusional and atrophies. The only true refuge from suffering is to seek out purpose and the joys of each other. That people will sometimes hurt you is inevitable, but you'll find that you can overcome anything with perseverance and a healthy mindset

FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

@DanielChristensen Aww… you're so clueless and cute!

FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

There's something more important than that but you'll never know ^-^

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

@FearfulHarmony49 Haha as you say. Good luck young one

FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

@DanielChristensen I wish I could say what it was! But then they'd have to kill me probably.

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

@FearfulHarmony49 That sounds terrible. The world is a really fucked up place. People are so often devious and obtuse, but you can choose what to embrace. It's not a single choice. It's made in every moment

FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

@DanielChristensen If i said anything they'd be hunted down though. So I'd have screwed them over

DanielChristensen · 46-50, M

@FearfulHarmony49 Sounds like you've been through really dark shit. Hope it gets better for you

FearfulHarmony49 · 22-25, T

@DanielChristensen I haven't become part of it yet. But I need to. It's fate.

LadyGrace ·

@DanielChristensen Truer words were never spoken! Oh, how I wish people would practice that. We weren't meant to atriphy!! 👍 [b]Much wisdom in your answer.[/b]