Feeling sad 32yrs old and never had a girlfriend

My story is very sad.

I'm 32 yrs old and never had a girlfriend. I got into the habit of seeing escorts from an early age of 18 out of curiosity and it became a habit.

So I've had lots of good sexual experiences with lots of good looking women from all over the world over the yrs but this is not fulfilling emotionally especially as I am directly paying for sex.

I have lots of positive characteristics. I work from home for myself and make 6 figure net income in space of 10 months. I'm 6ft tall and have a great muscular physique from lifting weights consistently over last 14 years.

I also have bigger than AVG penis size 6.5 inches. Despite this I get no results from online dating. I think this is because I am Asian and not white and I'm only attracted to white women.

Every escort I have seen over last 14yrs has been a white women. Quite a few of them have been attracted to me physically and given compliments.

I would like to get into a normal relationship with a woman that I'm attracted to and is attracted to me but I get very down from all this past baggage.

I see many men with girlfriends yet many of these men don't have lots of muscles like me, not 6ft tall or don't make 6 figures so I always get angry and upset when I see other couples as I ask myself why am I not with this girl, I am better than this guy, etc.

As online dating doesn't work for me due to race (online dating is best suited for white men), I have to meet women socially. I don't socialise too much but I do go to a salsa/bachata class once in a while and nothing materialises there other than just improving my dancing.

I go to the gym regularly but women there generally don't want to be disturbed. I have talked to some girls there but doesn't go anywhere.

I have tried cold approaching women in public and in supermarket and even got few numbers but goes nowhere.

I don't know what to do at this point. What also gets me down is that every woman I've had sex with in my life has been an escort. I don't go to bars and clubs, don't drink and online dating (tinder, etc) doesn't work for me.

This subconsciously gets me down even though I have a great physique and good income. I feel like I am better than a lot of the men that women are with in terms of physique, money , etc and I just always get angry and jealous seeing couples as it feels I will never get a girlfriend.

At 32 as well I am getting older and feels like I've run out of time. Mentally this whole situation gets me down most days and I don't know how to ever escape from this mental prison.

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Dignaga

Honestly, your best bet, given you have a thing for escorts, is to date a stripper.

I don't drink, smoke, do drugs and am heavily introverted. I tried out for the US Army Rangers, had to go to Airborne School before that, and obviously basic training. I was at Fort Benning for some time in Columbus Georgia. Young guys getting their first day off go to the strip club. While everyone else was getting hammered and vomiting, I was sitting staring at a useless drink (sometimes two drinks) I was forced to buy.

This attracks strippers like nothing else. They like free drinks, and if they find you are clear headed and actually interested in them, they will spend the night sitting with you, hardly spending any money at all for their company talking. If management gives them the stink eye they jump on your lap, but you don't have to pay. Because you are a nice guy, and in my case back then ge drally attractive enough.

Had I gotten into Ranger Batt I would of likely ended up with a stripper girlfriend. That's like the unit's generic default stereotype. Alot kf strippers are wild and nasty, not my type, but you get the college students doing it part time who are otherwise pretty well put together personality wise.

Alot of women won't want a guy who only has had escorts all his life, whatever you look like and get laid for. Since you are into that sort of thing, a stripper isn't much different and they are easy to locate, talk to and impress with money. Become a regular to one or two, see if it goes somewhere.

ghostsforglory · 31-35, M

@Dignaga I'm guessing a sugar baby is an option, problem with that is its the same thing as prostitution

Dignaga

@ghostsforglory Naw, reason I suggested getting two steady strippers as a regular is because one is bound to string you along. You are looking for one who took up stripping to pay for the bills because her only skillset is the dancing classes she got as a little girl. They are used to socially akward men with low social skills.

Get a old used cargo van, buy two electric bicycles, and two hammocks, and invite one bicycling after a while. On a trail you know. The electric assist makes it easier to accept incase they poop out. I used to ask them out for a bottle of snapple.

Give them something to do. They don't have much of a social life, old frkends cut them off, alot of prospect boyfriends won't like they are dancing.

Also, 99% of women are prostitutes looking for a sugar daddy. Yeah, they will eatch movies like pride and prejudice, and act like anyman with the right attitude can win them over, but the vast majority have a mercenary puss and will go to the highest bidder. They are upward social mountain climbers, and white women are no exception to this. You get pissed off women aren't dating you but at the same time note one of your virtues is having 6 didget pay. The average white guy with a house and suburban housewife is a sugar daddy. She is only with him for the financial security. I'm not saying she doesn't feel love, she thinks it is just that, but it isn't a deep love. She'll not hesitate to file for divorce over some triffling and rake him over the coals, and the stupid guy will be made to blame for it all.

The one time I made a woman crazy wild for me, it was when I was standing outside of a Texas Roadhouse in Steubenville, Ohio. This place to be exact:

A shoplifter came running out of the mall carrying a box, and security was screamkng stop. I was standing with my god mother.

He ran past me, 20 feet behind. My god mother said someone should do something, and I shrugged my shoulders and said fine, and slow jogged after him (bad knee) and he saw me and jumled over the hill into the thickets across the road. I sfood at the top and said fuck jt, and jummled down like Mario into the bryer patches and he screamed and went down into a little holow under them,ow crawling. I followed. It was dusk when this started. It ended with the people in line turning into a crowd and me returning with his shoe, and cut up all over. They could hear the guy screaming to let him go, but he was a slippery little F. Once he got out of my sight but I coukd still hear him I called the cops and tried coordinating with them to route him off but they never showed. I kept the shoe.

There was a bunch of people really impressed when I returned, but I wasn't interested, covered in burrs and dirt. Went home, returned the next night, and one of the waitresses ten years younger was obsessed with me. Why? Her dad was a sheriff (she didn't say which one but I was like F No, had a good guess who) and was clearly aroused by crime fighting men. I was just beginning my period of social isolation I wouldn't come out of for years. I just remember looking at her so aroused and silently nodded my head.

Bug problem with such a girl is it's a non-financial attraction, and I would always have to be the tough guy protector. I wasn't cop material. I don't like the judicial system. I really didn't want to wear a uniform again. Alot of my family did that. That's a full time pretend gig.

So in order to keep that girl, I'd have to be someone else other than me.

Who am I? Alot of things. I would hope a woman would love me for some of it someday, and not be so shallow as to leave me alone in it. A mutual partner.

A stripper can do this. Again, not the crazy party girls. I'm talking the ones who just got into it for the money out kf necessity. They really lost alot of normality and just want to be normal again. Alot of madams of brothels used to marry their older women off to clients who were obviously into that sort of woman, and they often made a good match. The modern esclrt service isn't quite structured that way anymore, with brothels so that won't work, but you get the idea. If you think your money is one of your virtues, and just want a relationship, target one of the more sane strippers who feels isolated herself. Learn about her, make friends. Make sure she responds to more than just money. Don't even mention how much you make until you guys are regularly talking about other stuff. If she only leaves you to visit one of her regulars and returns consistently after to sit and talk with you, you likely have a decent one.

Also, ignore 80% of what the women have to say on this site. I blocked half of them, garbage flows from their mouths. They are here because they too suck at relationships, and they got a puss, which makes having a relationship and friends with other women normally easy. They suck at it, come here, act like the queen bee and dispense idiotic advise to one another about men and what their true intentions or inner psychology is, and it's all crap. So I'd ignore them. Half the women here aren't even women, they are guys pretending to be women.

I'd suggest the stripper route for a while just to get used to talking with women. Look at places like meetup.com if you have any hobbies local women might be into. Take up pottery (you can get a kiln for $400, and a potters wheel isn't expensive) or painting or whatever you'ld like a woman to be into, and get involved with the community. I recall my best friend in the Army and I (we had the same first name and looked alike) used to go to a pottery place down the street from our barracks. We would make pottery from Seattle Clay or Vases. After I broke up with my long time girlfriend this young pretty Lt. would come in and join us. This went on for a few months until she got screamed at by some major for fraternizing with the lower enlisted. We never saw her again, but the next time we met up there after she was banned from hanging out with us he said to me "Well, I guess we're not gonna DP her" and I said "Probably not". We never sexually flirted with her or mentioned her when she wasn't around but she was often on our mind. Pottery places abound in cities. You can affors to open up your own studio. You can get into glass blowing. Sell crap art, and go to art open houses and have your fake ass art displayed and stand next to it as college gis sip wines and scrutinize it acting like they are art experts (seen it happen alot). Lots of ways to get women's attention.

My problem is I do history and philosophy and if they hear philosophy they will either talk about existentialist or go into a feminist triade (if they claim they are into women's rights it means they will abort anything that moves, not a good pick for starting a family). I've never met one with a deep understanding of history, I've met women with masters in history, but all had a very shallow grasp on history. I just keep aloof for the most part. I might get a pirtable kiln and make pottery on the side and sell it at some art gallery to meet a woman, but most women into art these days smoke pot to be more "creative" and that's gonna piss me off.

Just think of the type of woman you want, and with your pay, expect a sugar daddy relationship. Even a low wage factory worker in a long term relationship with another woman is paying for it. She's taking all his pay, kids or not. Baskin Robbins ain't free.

ghostsforglory · 31-35, M

@Dignaga thanks for the advice. To be honest what you say is true, there is no such thing as unconditional love from women

People laugh at sugar daddies but really those men are smart, they can use their money to get really hot and young girls for long term arrangements and have fun.