There's still space in my heart for him
We talked last night.
I had been feeling unsure in the relationship, so I took a step back to have some time to think. He had messaged me 3 times that day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon, and once in the evening. When I didn't answer, he called me.
When he asked me if I was upset, and I explained that I was confused about what he thought of me. I explained how he would say grandiose things one day, like he wants me to meet his parents, or what's to take to a fancy dinner, or on a trip somewhere for a weekend... then we just continue to meet at his house, and only after 8pm because of his job schedule (or so he tells me). I told him that I need actual dates to feel valued, and not casual meet-ups where he asks me last minute to "hang out".
He explained that he does not feel casually about me, but also is afraid of committing to me because of what he went through in past relationships. He said that he wished he had met me before all of that. I told him that I understood that, but I need to be in a relationship with someone that is 100% in, because I'm 100% in. And I told him that if he wanted things to stay casual, he shouldn't have been saying "un-casual" things to me.
He agreed and said that was fair. I told him I didn't want him to feel like I was forcing him to do anything. He said he didn't feel that way. He knew that I was just sharing my preferences. Then he explained that he thinks I am an amazing person, and he would like the opportunity to continue to get to know me and that he is moving toward a more committed place, but can't be rushed there. He said he needs to take it slow.
I told him that I would just need the night to think about it (because I've been told things like that all the time and it leads nowhere. It's been used as another way to string me along further in the past).
Then we hung up the phone. And he texted me this.
[media=https://youtu.be/ZS9J47zdXdM]
I had been feeling unsure in the relationship, so I took a step back to have some time to think. He had messaged me 3 times that day. Once in the morning, once in the afternoon, and once in the evening. When I didn't answer, he called me.
When he asked me if I was upset, and I explained that I was confused about what he thought of me. I explained how he would say grandiose things one day, like he wants me to meet his parents, or what's to take to a fancy dinner, or on a trip somewhere for a weekend... then we just continue to meet at his house, and only after 8pm because of his job schedule (or so he tells me). I told him that I need actual dates to feel valued, and not casual meet-ups where he asks me last minute to "hang out".
He explained that he does not feel casually about me, but also is afraid of committing to me because of what he went through in past relationships. He said that he wished he had met me before all of that. I told him that I understood that, but I need to be in a relationship with someone that is 100% in, because I'm 100% in. And I told him that if he wanted things to stay casual, he shouldn't have been saying "un-casual" things to me.
He agreed and said that was fair. I told him I didn't want him to feel like I was forcing him to do anything. He said he didn't feel that way. He knew that I was just sharing my preferences. Then he explained that he thinks I am an amazing person, and he would like the opportunity to continue to get to know me and that he is moving toward a more committed place, but can't be rushed there. He said he needs to take it slow.
I told him that I would just need the night to think about it (because I've been told things like that all the time and it leads nowhere. It's been used as another way to string me along further in the past).
Then we hung up the phone. And he texted me this.
[media=https://youtu.be/ZS9J47zdXdM]
31-35, F
