I Am A Real Werewolf
Explain, If You Can... Tell me, if you know. Explain, if you can, how I feel that I am a wolf? By wolf, in this case, I mean some being that is both human and wolf; a werewolf is a general term to use, in my opinion, but I also tend to use the term “wolf”. How can I believe that I am such a thing? How can it be that I feel I have always known it, even from a young age? Surely, there are many potential explanations. You might suggest that I say this only for attention, but what support is there? If I truly sought attention, through a computer is not the best way to seek it. Even then, you do not see me posting things like “I’m like totally a werewolf, and I was like bitten by a Lycan from like Romania”. I do not just blurt it out. In fact, I am very self-conscious about it. There are a few people; people who know. Before I can even tell someone, I have to gauge how open-minded they are. If I do not get a good sense that they might be accepting, I drop it and never even hint at it. Even when I try to tell someone I can trust, my heart pounds and I can never say it straightforwardly. In other words, I “beat around the bush”; I stall and I try to find an indirect way of saying it. Attention, then, seems like an unlikely motive. So, perhaps I am psychologically unstable. However, the fact that I am a twenty-year-old Master’s student planning out my potential career, I have a mate, a good relationship with my parents and my family in general, and I have friends takes support away from that theory. Of course, when I was younger, I was much more introverted and shy, but wouldn’t you be? If you felt, deep inside, that you were a werewolf and you were struggling with the questions of “Am I really?” versus “Am I crazy?”, how extroverted would you be? But once I understood myself better, and accepted what I am, I improved. I became much more social and the only troubles I have are trying to get homework and term papers done while contemplating the ins and outs of my potential thesis. So then, what is left? If I am a fairly psychologically and socially healthy person, what might explain why I think I am a wolf?
When I was younger, I even went to therapy, more as an advisement by some older friends of mine. I went and it was nice to talk to someone about everyday things. However, once I felt comfortable telling my little secret, it all went downhill. They tried hard to pin me with something. I still have a packet, or rather a list, of all possibly relevant disorders in the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual; practically the psychological bible), none of which applied. It was a long list of phrases like “does not appear to have” and “shows no signs of”. And again, one of the key identifiers for deviance or having a psychological disorder is the inability to function well in society. ba<x>sed on what I know, I cannot think of a good argument that explains this. Perhaps you could say I am lying, but why would I? That would mean I have been lying for years. Go back and see how long I have been talking about werewolves, even just on EP or on Yahoo! Answers. I will admit how naïve I was back then, but I was never unstable and I never lied. I say what I think is right, and what I think is true. There is no real solid evidence for truth that I could present, although I imagine there are people here who could vouch for me. I am not saying that, if you cannot explain to me why I feel that I am a wolf, it automatically means I am a wolf. However, before you look down your nose at me like you know what you are talking about, ask yourself whether or not you even have a counter-argument. If all you do is say “werewolves do exist” or “werewolves don’t exist” without any argument or data to support your claim, then I would prefer that you just keep your mouth shut because you are not contributing anything useful to the conversation. All you are doing is wasting your breath, and wasting our time. So explain to me, please, how can this be? I know what I think, but I would like to see someone else explain it. So many people immediately discredit others who claim to be some sort of wolf-creature or anything other than human, well now is your chance. Explain, if you can, how I feel that I am a wolf. Do not hesitate to try any argument. I mean that with complete sincerity. I would love to see what anyone could come up with. Feel free.
When I was younger, I even went to therapy, more as an advisement by some older friends of mine. I went and it was nice to talk to someone about everyday things. However, once I felt comfortable telling my little secret, it all went downhill. They tried hard to pin me with something. I still have a packet, or rather a list, of all possibly relevant disorders in the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual; practically the psychological bible), none of which applied. It was a long list of phrases like “does not appear to have” and “shows no signs of”. And again, one of the key identifiers for deviance or having a psychological disorder is the inability to function well in society. ba<x>sed on what I know, I cannot think of a good argument that explains this. Perhaps you could say I am lying, but why would I? That would mean I have been lying for years. Go back and see how long I have been talking about werewolves, even just on EP or on Yahoo! Answers. I will admit how naïve I was back then, but I was never unstable and I never lied. I say what I think is right, and what I think is true. There is no real solid evidence for truth that I could present, although I imagine there are people here who could vouch for me. I am not saying that, if you cannot explain to me why I feel that I am a wolf, it automatically means I am a wolf. However, before you look down your nose at me like you know what you are talking about, ask yourself whether or not you even have a counter-argument. If all you do is say “werewolves do exist” or “werewolves don’t exist” without any argument or data to support your claim, then I would prefer that you just keep your mouth shut because you are not contributing anything useful to the conversation. All you are doing is wasting your breath, and wasting our time. So explain to me, please, how can this be? I know what I think, but I would like to see someone else explain it. So many people immediately discredit others who claim to be some sort of wolf-creature or anything other than human, well now is your chance. Explain, if you can, how I feel that I am a wolf. Do not hesitate to try any argument. I mean that with complete sincerity. I would love to see what anyone could come up with. Feel free.
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