I'm tired of being American.

Perhaps it's my age/generation, but there's no opportunity left. The boomers that can't afford to live on their retirement take all the decent jobs because they "have experience". The older generations treat us like babies but expect us to fill in for our parents when we have our own kids to take care of. Meanwhile they keep taking from kids, taking away any help and I keep hearing them say they don't care what they leave behind.

I'm sure they're tired. We're all tired. But some of us are still trying to do the right thing and make it.

Meanwhile the system only supports the wealthy and the wealthy don't know when to quit. I didn't vote for a terrorist president but I have to exist in a country in fear of retaliation. Because let's face it, only the innocent get killed in this crap. The rich and royal are protected, the rest of us are sitting ducks. Waiting for the bomb to drop on us when we never would of considered doing what trump has done.

Everything is falling apart and nobody can do anything to make it better without being shot in the face. And if all we do is care about ourselves like our selfishness is a life jacket, it doesn't mean we won't drown or get eaten along with everyone else.

The American dream is dead. The constitution is over and our lies and secrets of genocide are out in the open. And nobody can do anything.

Protesting is all a distraction. Trump is laughing and building a ballroom. He doesn't care about this country, he cares about wealth. We fucking voted in an asshole rich guy who does what they all do. Destroy.

At this point I just want some land in the desert because I know those snobs won't want to live where they dumped the natives. At least I can have peace. I'd like for my son to be able to make it but I have to plan several different options for him because I don't know what's going to happen in the next few years due to the constant instability and anxiety these old rich people cause just because they don't have to suffer.

I have zero pride in my country. Aside from it's natural beauty and wonder, this place is a shit hole.

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Livingwell · 61-69, M

I think the perception you have varies between localities..RI is a rich entitled state. Many elites and many believe they will take their wealth with them. In Oregon, the inside and outside perception varies widely. The governor believes Portland metro is the state. It is home to a large lgbtq community and activists. Lots of causes, all philosophy driven. Younger and angry. But elsewhere like where I live, it's farming and more traditional America. People are warm, friendly, and help each other out. When a cause arises, people are generous to their neighbors. As for wealth, it's split between the older and younger progressive generations. The mindset is to support our children to get a good education and establish themselves. Afterward, we live to be comfortable but our savings is not destined for our children. I gave my kids a leg up on life. So I'm not living for them to give it all away. I want to enjoy my remaining life. But those younger progressives have a mindset to give their wealth to their children. And they expect their parents to do that too. This is the big divide. We also work to support ourselves when needed. I never counted on SS to support me so I saved for retirement. The benefit is obvious now. I think this model is similar in other places. My parents worked hard and demanded I work hard as it was obvious they were not supporting me down the road. When they passed, nothing was saved or given to the children. I hope this helps in some way. There are good people. And there are sucky locations to live.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@Livingwell from my seat, I will work to leave something for my son. He doesn't have anyone but me and my parents are gone, and truth is, I don't know what this country will be like in another ten years when he's out on his own. I was raised to get an education and work hard, I did those things and it didn't work out for me. I have been raising my son to do the same knowing it may not be enough. Knowing I won't have enough for myself.

My point is, the same opportunities don't exist and that should be more obvious. I will probably live in a van on public land so my son can have a life that I wasn't able to provide. I have to accept that.

I watched my home be taken over by the worst kind of people. My community was ruined. I didn't ask for it nor participate in it, it was decided for me that progress was more important than peace. It could happen to your community too if enough people decide they want to move in.

No one is immune, but people in general like to believe there's always a way. That's a privilege. I have lost that privilege and since no one is looking out for my son, I will. And I'll speak my mind about it, because it's the only thing I can do.

Livingwell · 61-69, M

@ScreamingFox I truly understand what you are seeing. I see it too. Parents like you struggling. A good friend is sick and can't afford their meds. No one there for support. I don't think it is hopeless. But a change of location is likely required. Portland used to be a nice place to go visit. Concerts, plays, the arts, city events. But after Covid, all of the activists came out of the woodwork and created a toxic environment. I do not feel welcome nor do I see opportunity for me. So I can imagine how isolated you feel.

Handfull1 · 61-69, F

@ScreamingFox I loved reading both perspectives. If only more people would do that as much is learned!