I need to apologize to people on SW (and in particularly people from the US)

It's been a few months since I was last really here, but I did make a lot of posts about "Americans" then, whatever that really means. To me it meant people who were becoming increasingly hostile towards me, and I realize that I deluded myself into feeling as though nearly everyone on SW ("the Americans") were my enemies, in one form or another. That's not true and I in part understood that much all along. Continuous post replies and DM's about how my husband should be a "real man" by enlisting into a dying army, in a losing country at war, however made me feel rage which I cannot explain to anyone who have not been in the situation of continuously being close to losing their husband for 3 years now. Not a day goes by when I don't fear that the recruiters will find him and take him, like they literally found and took every other Ukrainian man I've ever known, by now – yet these people WANT this fear to come true? I know logically that they do not understand what they are saying, but I wasn't able to keep up with this slander emotionally, and spewed hate towards anything and anyone American, in return. At this time I can still not understand the lack of empathy it must take, to believe that a person should give up their one and only life, to end up in a deserted mass-grave, remembered by no-one, or burned to a crisp as if they never existed. I hope I never understand that line of thinking, because I find it outrageously distrusting. Regardless, I think that I owe the many wonderful, interesting, intelligent Americans on SW, an apology. I hope that you are able to understand my intentions, and not paint me racist. I have always found great meaning in meeting people from different cultures online – myself being multicultural – and I hope to continue finding positive meaning in exploring the world, even when through a screen like on SW. I would still love to visit America one day, that won't change with everything happening today, and I hope the American people will still welcome me. I sincerely apologize for the times when my posts were generalizing and demeaning. I want everyone to know that I have never truly felt in such a way about America, nor any other culture.