Thinking about walking away

This is my personal feelings and my personal experiences with Christianity and the church. Been thinking about walking away from Christianity, for quite some time. I still believe there is a God, and I’m still a spiritual person. I don’t go to church anymore, for reasons being that I don’t believe in being a part of something that does not accept me, or other people, even when they have “welcome all” signs up. I don’t want to be somewhere that is a constant reminder of when I was molested as a child. Church doesn’t and never have, given me that comfort, that I always wanted. I’ve been to churches where I was judged for being disabled. I’ve been to churches where I’ve experienced racism. I have searched and searched, and thought I found the perfect church, then a guy, kept bothering me and wouldn’t leave me alone, so I left and never looked back. I see church as just a building. A building that doesn’t want me there anyway. I don’t feel bad about walking away. In fact, it’s the opposite. Because I can freely have a personal and spiritual relationship with God, and be at peace with that. I can’t really say that I “dislike” Christianity, I just feel like it’s just not for me.

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canusernamebemyusername · M

Sounds reasonable. Spiritual is better than religion imo. It is more vague and leaves much more room for tolerance. Religion on the other hand is dogma and strict adherence to one of over 45,000 different interpretations that must be follow or else condemnation to hellfire. You could try the mystical sects. Such as Sufism in Islam, Kabbalah in Judaism and Gnosticism in Christianity. Only problem is with Gnosticism is that many of the surviving texts are just that, surviving. They have huge chunks missing at times because the people that believed and followed them were tracked down and killed by the early church.
Another thing might be to find a Unitarian Universalist church. Many Christians hate them though because they take and learn from other faith systems to the point that some don't consider them Christian. But those tend to be the same kind of people that think Catholics aren't Christian either.
But no spirituality is not a religion and neither one is a building. And none of them even have anything to do with other people. Faith should be no one else's business but your own. It should be personal and unique to you.

NaturalBeautyQueen · 41-45, F

@canusernamebemyusername thank you! It is better to not be told what to do. One thing I don’t like is being told what to do. That is why I’d prefer to do my own thing.