I love God but...

I don't like calling myself a Christian. My lifestyle is not in line with the regulations required for Christianity right now. I receive alot of judgement online for that. It's not that I don't want to change and live a life more in line with God it's that it takes time. Let me explain..I live with my boyfriend. I know that's shocking to a Christian but it's true. I'm living in sin as far as they are concerned. But have you ever stopped to wonder as a Christian that there might be good reason for that. For us it's both because I'm in the process of getting divorced at the same time as we live together for health reasons. We do plan to marry as soon as it's possible but that's going to take time. I'm ok with this because God knows my situation. He knows my heart and what I want. I don't need all the backlash and judgement about something that's between me and God. So I don't call myself a Christian because I hate judging people. I want to not fixate on sin but to concentrate on the loving and accepting side of God instead. Because that's the kind of person I am.