When I was in love

I hung on every word that person said, and I wanted to hear more. I wanted to read what that person wrote and know everything there was to know.
I stopped because it’s not my right to know. I was trying to learn everything about someone who wasn’t for me. There was no point to it, and I didn’t want to feed an unhealthy obsession.

Now I say I love God. Sometimes I struggle to understand what I’m reading in the Bible. The first thing I do every morning is pray and read. But sometimes when I read, it’s without understanding. It’s just words, and then I move on with my day as if it was good enough to feed my heart.

But it isn’t.

I didn’t grow up in the church like my younger sisters had. I wish I’d had those fun vacation Bible school memories and retreats like they enjoy. You pick a struggle in life, and they know an applicable verse. Songs helped them to memorize them. I want that. I want the verses carved into my memories so that I can think of them in every moment of my life.

I’ve decided that simply reading the books of the Bible isn’t good enough anymore. I want to study them as fully as I can, and understand everything about what God says before I move on to the next book. I’m starting with 2 Corinthians since I so often reference something Paul said in that letter.
I read it, check the notes in the study Bible I have, check online for sermons pertaining to each chapter and any historical or cultural facts on it.

I think that’s what I do when I love; learning as much as I can about who I love. Except it isn’t an unhealthy obsession this time because God is for everyone.

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Adstar · 56-60, M

When i read the Bible for the first time i would not understand a lot of what i was reading... But i read in faith and i prayed often asking God to give me wisdom.. I found out that often the passages that i did not understand would later become more understandable because i read something later in the Bible that helped me understand what i had read before..

So i would encourage people to read in faith and be a nagging pest to God 🤗 constantly knocking and asking Him for understanding.. Jesus told a parable once about a man who nagged a neighbour for a loaf of bread because visitor had come to his house late at night.. He kept on asking his neighbour and so eventually the neighbour open up his door and gave him what he was asking for..

Colonelmustardseed · 36-40

@Adstar I love this. I remember that story. Thank you for your wisdom. I do need to pray for understanding and wisdom, and “wrestle with the Lord” for answers. 🧡