When I was in love

I hung on every word that person said, and I wanted to hear more. I wanted to read what that person wrote and know everything there was to know.
I stopped because it’s not my right to know. I was trying to learn everything about someone who wasn’t for me. There was no point to it, and I didn’t want to feed an unhealthy obsession.

Now I say I love God. Sometimes I struggle to understand what I’m reading in the Bible. The first thing I do every morning is pray and read. But sometimes when I read, it’s without understanding. It’s just words, and then I move on with my day as if it was good enough to feed my heart.

But it isn’t.

I didn’t grow up in the church like my younger sisters had. I wish I’d had those fun vacation Bible school memories and retreats like they enjoy. You pick a struggle in life, and they know an applicable verse. Songs helped them to memorize them. I want that. I want the verses carved into my memories so that I can think of them in every moment of my life.

I’ve decided that simply reading the books of the Bible isn’t good enough anymore. I want to study them as fully as I can, and understand everything about what God says before I move on to the next book. I’m starting with 2 Corinthians since I so often reference something Paul said in that letter.
I read it, check the notes in the study Bible I have, check online for sermons pertaining to each chapter and any historical or cultural facts on it.

I think that’s what I do when I love; learning as much as I can about who I love. Except it isn’t an unhealthy obsession this time because God is for everyone.

[media=https://youtu.be/A9fQm5LBZ_0]