Does it affect your prayers and how often you do them when you harbor hate or anger inside towards another?

God claimed revenge is His.
But sometimes you wish it now and soon. And it makes you feel like a different person in your own eyes and heart

If you delight in your enemies' misfortune, it's said that God would be displeased and turn His anger away from them.
But aren't we human? No, I am not justifying.
But are not karma and misfortune what retribution and revenge are about?

Part of me is tired to hold myself on standards that hurt my own feelings.
But the big part of me knows and have experienced enough to know God is not petty.
So perhaps it is own perception that has been clouded. I honestly don't know. But I am tired of trying to be perfect.